Adventures in consciousness

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Hypnosis

Interesting that the reason why researchers get scared off is because of entertainment success. As if entertainment nullifies science.

Mind Hacks: Neuropsychology of hypnosis

Friday, September 15, 2006

inadvertant reason to legalize cocaine

The underlying reason alcohol boosts income is due to social interaction, especially in men. Just think of the income boost by throwing coke into the mix. Another way to look at the 70's "rich man's aspirin"

Alcohol use helps boost income: study - Yahoo! News

Friday, August 25, 2006

How to be a friend

The short course. Hmm...may be only applicable to Australians...
MHFA- General Help

Male Reproduction Brain Change

Prefrontal cortex density increase in one set of monkeys...
Fatherhood May Change the Brain

Friday, August 18, 2006

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Move & Flow

S-t-r-e-t-c-h

Initiating the movement...again.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

no worries?

I wrote earlier
noticable lack of cares & worries what others think or see
I also had no problem unbuttoning her shirt on the dance floor; I could have gone further and pobably would have if the venue was burning man.

How do I have that attitude when there hasn't been a buildup? I could use NLP techniques. I want to think of what I am doing instead of what I'm not doing.

There is one further piece to throw in the mix. And it may be the crux. The majority of her attention was upon me. She made no effort to talk with anyone else or to catch anyone else's eye.

Wow...just writing that forced me to stop, cross my arms, tighten my throat, tense my shoulder, and have the overwhelming desire to argue it away. Touching a raw nerve here....

Beaming

A very nice evening on Friday. What made it so?

Getting "there"
  • Taking time for self and wife
  • Ritual of getting dressed to go out
  • Bassnectar
  • Birthday call to very close friend
  • 1/2 tab e , 5mg vike, 100g n2o
  • Dancing

"there"
  • body language - head & chin up; shoulders back
  • emotional state is "beaming" - an exuberant push of emotion, joyous, energetic - fuck yeah
  • feedback from others - the vibe and smiles
  • play with wife
  • water, 2 bites of food, fresh air

"after"
  • left shoulder burn gone ~ 4 days +
  • emotional contentment for 24 hours and tapering

comment
  • experiment with further anchoring of state by rubbing fingers behind back - ever so slight elation without other environs + 3 days
  • noticable lack of cares & worries what others think or see - this deserves its own post

Friday, February 03, 2006

Converse with Self

Woke up at 2am to the anxiety and burning sensation. Thought crosses my mind that I should ask my body what is going on rather than coercing with drugs. Deeply breathing and relaxing. Let myself off the hook and knew part of me was just protecting me and tried to talk to it. Why am I so resistent to my day job, why am I so depressed, what is going on? I know I'm carrying stress in my shoulder and left side. I promised my self that we would become who we are and accept there are no guarantees.

I continued to breath deep and relax so I could hear/feel/see the answer. I relaxed right into sleep. I dreamt of a friend I knew 20 years ago. He had aged and become a teacher. A group of us were fighting an enemy that took away our valuables and disrupted our lives.

I woke up asking myself "What's the point of gaining anything if it's just going to be taken away?" Material posessions, friends, family, routines, memories -- nothing is beyond the reach of being taken away. So why should I do anything?

Experience. The experience of Will.

Anxiety

Full day of anxieties and tremblings. Fragments of thoughts and feelings I can't quite coalesce. I keep catching myself being/becoming attached to outcomes...knowing full well that it expresses neediness.

External and internal stressors involved in circular thoughts and feelings. Breaking state became very tiring. Feeling of being on verge of full nervous breakdown.

Went to bed last night depressed -- low energy, loneliness, anxious. Severe burning sensation left shoulder and back.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Mirror and Mantra

I put a mirror on my desk . I'm getting feedback from others that I look angry or upset. It could be that I'm lying to myself so well that I don't even realize it. So I'm keeping a mirror here so I can see what they are talking about. Also, it's interesting to see the differences after doing some of the exercises. I should probably take pictures for measurement.

The mantra I use for emotional switching is the Law. My definition of Will keeps changing. Will currently defined as the combined, multiple intelligence selves using conscious decisions and intent.
So getting high on Love is the Law, love under Will. Love, that chemical release of oxytocin and neuro transmitters. Chemicals administered under will. Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. And that's where the infinite loop kicks in and I am HIGH. Consciously kick off sub/un/conscious routines to change brain chemistry to accomplish whatever. Motherfuckin' magick.

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Emotional Switching

Incredible feelings of energy since turning attention to this area. I'm two days into it and only doing one exercise within this realm.

Emotional switching.

The imperitive is to control emotional state. This doesn't mean to diminish emotions, it means to switch them at will. This ability is at the heart of NLP and hypnosis. To break state, jump to another emotional state. I was having enormous difficulty doing this. Hell, I was having great difficulty expressing emotional states!

Last year, I took acting classes (more on this later) and one of the most theraputic activites was doing some emotional switching. The instructor placed 4 pieces of paper in a square on the floor. Each square had an emotion. We said our monolog while the instructor directed us to jump to different squares and say the lines with that particular emotion. Only 7% of communication is in the actual words, the other 93% is body language and tonality.

What words are used to perform the emotional switching? It doesn't matter. Print out a list of emotions and say the mantra using everything you have to express the emotion. The exercise should give goose bumps or other physiological effects...that's how I know I'm doing it right.

Physical

Two weeks ago , I start the physical circuit. I brainstormed a lot of activities I could do.
The successful ones:
  • Walk every day 15-30 minutes
  • Facial movements (per Dr. Hyatt's non-book Energized Hypnosis)
  • Drink water (lbs/2 = oz)
  • Get a massage
Mixed results:
  • Limit alcohol to weekends only - working about 50% of time
  • Eat a salad every day - getting about 50% coverage
  • Work out with a core ball - settled for using the core ball as my desk chair
Didn't even bother:
  • Detox/fast for 3 days
  • Stop drinking caffeine
Had some emotional and social sticking points over the last two weeks. The issues were not related to the physical activities. If anything, the physical activities lessened the severity and allowed a certain amount of solace.

Spiral Method

Concentrate on the Leary circuits for a period of time. Focus on the circuit at hand and don't concern self with other circuits. This is not to say don't do anything with the other circuits, just don't get hung up on issues they are presenting while on the current circuit. Attempt to concentrate on developing habits within the circuit while also experimenting with trying something new. The spiral will bring another opportunity to incorporate a habit.

  1. Goals for the circuit.

  2. Brainstorm activities for the circuit.

  3. Prioritize for the current cycle

Make haste slowly. Don't do too much at once, but do something every day.